I Got Another No

Today I cried, I cried today for another NO that I hear on my journey of getting my books published, and started my company VL@W Enterprises Inc., I had lunch with someone who for the pasted few months made me feel like he was going to invested in me then the day had arrival and he was a wolf in sheep clothing. Theirs is a lesson in this? I have always been careful with people about my books but I feel like this was real. In the end he wanted to sleep with me, and buy the books from me. I was proud at how I let the lesson being inhale, digest and learned. The first time you meet someone universe let’s you know if it’s real or not. I was so desperate in making this happen on my own that I didn’t truth my feels that his words were too fast, and his energy scream by any means necessary. You don’t have to sell the story over, and over to the same person. Either they are or they will not. My lesson was trust your first feeling, and don’t let the delays cloud your spirit and block your growth. You know where your truth lays live in it, stay in it, and trust the truth in it. I’m little older now since I started this journey on getting my books published, so when something bad happen It’s just add another pages to books and I learned. It’s still hurt because I know my books belong on the shelves of some big retail stores, my cards on the shelves of some great book store. I was born to be in a space that is empty now because I’m operated in this places that I don’t belong in but I don’t know how to get out or know anyone to help me get out. I don’t know how to get to the places, that spaces I should be in. So many no’s, when will that one yes come from. All I know is I’m wasting away in a places that I don’t belong in. How, when, where will this break thought happen. I know it will and I will be ready when it does. I’m exciting about all the No’s because I know my Yes is on its way. 2010 something big is going to happen to Virginia. You just watch and see….Be free and love hard. Later

In the Now, Day 2

I learned something powerful today in the most boring place or so I thought. I need to lose some weight. I have put on maybe 20-30 pounds in the last year. Pain, stress, fears, disappointment, and growing pains have been some of the main ingredient. This year and all my past years I have been working very hard for the ”IOU Coupons for Occasions” 12 book series to come to pass. It still has not happen, but my whys are being answers slowing. You’re not ready, sang like a song in my head over, and over again from the sound on the tracks. I walk this track everyday at the same time, and never seen her. I hear an older beautiful lady completely happy in her being speak this word out loud in the universe. I look at her in a space that only appointed moment should be in. Why would you say that? Soon, very soon you will be ready but not now. You still care what other say about you; destiny and doubt can’t be in the same space. Live free in your truth. Be free from all the drama, and the people that’s hold you hostage in their own life who will not be anything else but what they are. Yes you made some huge mistakes but there were all part of the lessons. The universe goes round with all kind of people in it. You have to be the person that you must be. The person that your ancestor stood in a long line for so your soul, and spirit can be free. You will be ready when you tell the universe out loud whatever you have for me I’m ready, and be that Ready. I learned today no matter what my pure connected to everything good is what’s going to grant me permission for my destiny. I know my destiny my books will be in the stores soon and very soon. Because I’m the captain of my destiny, and I am READY.

In the Now, Day 2

In the Now- Day 1

"Do dream come true"? I have always wonder do dream come true or is dream like everything else in life only for the selected few. How do you get to that place? What roads do you get on and what side street do you take to touch that dream. What do you do to get to this places that your starve to be in. Destiny is powerful and to living in your true is beautiful, and powerful. Its work, and sometimes when you get to that place where something is about to happen, or your break through is like the necessity of rain in a dry land. The universe placed a temporary hold in it. A delay path is not a deny blessing. Something we must continue the work, the fight because we are still broken with some deep crack that keep us from being ready, ready for the responsible of all that big dream can produce.